melancholy – melancholic
I finally created a profile on Pandora.com and I am really enjoying the music selection tonight.
I typed in ‘the Sounds’ and boom ! My favorite song started playing and it’s only been getting better … I am impressed … or maybe my taste is just that predictable haha!
There was a song poppin’ up by ‘Shiny Toy Guns’ and it made me think of one of my ‘mystery internet friends’. I mean I have know him for quite some time, we email[ed] a bunch, we just never really met each other. I do consider him my friend… God bless the Internet, right ? Hearing that song kinda make me feel melancholy; [did I spell/ write that right?]
I had to think back of the days I lived with my old roommate/ friend and her children, snowboarding and people poppin’ up and exiting out of your life and what it all means. I obviously haven’t come to terms yet with whatever happened and the way things went down.
It’s really weird. And sad … but I am thankful for my other friends, the opportunities in my life and my [ and my friends' + family's ] health .
Ahum… move on…
So back to Pandora … Lily Allen popped up and I never really listened to any of her songs… but it sounded really catchy and kinda complimented my melancholy :
I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and I want loads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find themAnd I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winnerI don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear