MASCHA VAN TONGEREN

Just Play It!

For the full effect of this posting and a better understanding to how I really feel… please crank up your volume and press PLAY!! And uh, just in case you wanted to sing along… here are the lyrics to the song:

Last night night was fight night: WEC on Versus, Urijah Faber vs Jens Pulver.

It was amazing! I mean I have been pretty hormonal over the last couple of days and I am telling you, I would love to wrestle with Urijah… IN MY BED!

Soooo, anyway, after watching the 5 rounds last night you can say I went to bed pretty wound up/ heated with California Kid Urijah on my mind… in fact I dreamt about him:

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I dreamt I was driving to his house [we were friends already] and I was wearing my snowboard pants [??]. Urijah comes out on the drive way and looks me in the eyes, kisses me and takes me inside. He’s super nice and gives me a pair of socks [??]. I ended up in his bedroom watching TV while he trains in his gym. He comes and checks up on me every now and then, we make out in the bed and all I can think of his him f*ucking me. It doesn’t happen though… unfortunately. After a while I needed to go home and I went to say goodbye to him… some of my male friends are in his gym, hanging out with him and I asked Urijah what he was doing/ up to and he looked me in my eyes and told me that he was hoping that I would stay in his life and how lucky he was to have me. He had those amazing puppy eyes when he told me that and then we made out some more…

Then I woke up. Confused, not to mention extremely hot and bothered …feeling like a perv. Hahaha, I mean I still didn’t have sex… not in real life… hell, not even in my dreams!

So what I am to do? Will I put my supernetworking to use and start following him around like an insane stalker? hehehe, I already joined his myspace page and looked on youtube for all his interviews…. Nah, I think I’ll leave it as it is… a nice fantasy because he’s perfect in my dreams right now. I kind of want to hold on to that, because I don’t want him to end up like David Beckham! I mean I used to have a major crush on him but when I met him in real life and we actually spoke… his voice was so not how I imagined it… it was such a turn off, he got booted out of my fantasies!

*sigh*

It is pretty hard to be me!

The wife left a couple of days ago for Florida. She took the baby with her, leaving me with her 13 year old son. She’s gonna be gone for 10 days total. Her sister got a boob job and she went to Miami to take care of her. I want one as well! a boob job that is hahaha… I guess I am saving it for my 35th birthday. I love my wife and her kids, but it is kind of nice to have the whole house [almost] to myself and not to hear the baby scream and throw tantrums all day long.

Something strange is happening to me… I am kind of getting hormonal again and I am afraid that my dirty thirties are turning into a fact of life. I mean… I am trying my best to ignore my feelings, I work out in the gym, watch TV, write this blog, skate etc. but it keeps being on my mind… and I just can’t help it. I am going a bit crazy… argh.

 Sooo, it’s been like weeks since my last entry…

Sorry, I have been too busy snowboarding. It’s Winter! FINALLY!

There have been some major changes in my life or the way I feel:

* I have been snowboarding so much and just going down the mountain as fast as possible or with great form/style isn’t satisfying anymore. I want more. I never thought I was ever gonna feel like this, but I guess skateboarding over Summer and eating concrete has helped my snowboarding skills, so I can actually say that I am pretty confident that I have passed the beginners stage, moved on to the far intermediate stage…So I am moving on and will be hitting the park and learn new things. I want to BUTTER! It looks so much fun.

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* I seriously believe that I am finally entering my dirty thirties, meaning, I am beginning to feel a bit hormonal. I noticed that I am checking out guys and wonder if they would be any good… Very disturbing, but on the other hand very comforting to know that I am not frigid or lesbian, as I started to doubt myself….

* My roommate’s other son is moving in tomorrow. He’s 13 and I know that this will be a major lifestyle adjustment. I am taking it day by day, trying not to worry too much.

* Workwise, nothing spectacular, having some communication problems with the developers. I am planning on creating a strong team, focusing on different aspects of the company and moving on to the next stage.

* I kissed a boy. He is 26 and lives in CT. I was drunk, no regrets though… he’s cute. I guess I had to get it out of my system. It was a Vegas night.

Other than that, getting ready for the Holidays, still no sugar daddy… hahaha, still playing the lottery.

OK, back to writing cards and packing an overnight bag, am off to California for two days… unfortunately I won’t be snowboarding…