I typed in ‘the Sounds’ and boom ! My favorite song started playing and it’s only been getting better … I am impressed … or maybe my taste is just that predictable haha!

There was a song poppin’ up by ‘Shiny Toy Guns’ and it made me think of one of my ‘mystery internet friends’. I mean I have know him for quite some time, we email[ed] a bunch, we just never really met each other. I do consider him my friend… God bless the Internet, right ?  Hearing that song kinda make me feel melancholy; [did I spell/ write that right?]

I had to think back of the days I lived with my old roommate/ friend and her children, snowboarding and people poppin’ up and exiting out of your life and what it all means. I obviously haven’t come to terms yet with whatever happened and the way things went down.

It’s really weird. And sad … but I am thankful for my other friends, the opportunities in my life and my [ and my friends' + family's ] health .

Ahum… move on…

So back to Pandora … Lily Allen popped up and I never really listened to any of her songs… but it sounded really catchy and kinda complimented my melancholy :

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and I want loads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

And I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars concussing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
And its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah we’re on to a winner

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything’s cool as long as I’m gettin thinner

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cause I’m being taken over by fear

It was an amazing experience that I will never ever forget. I know that my time is far from stellar, but the goal was to do it, enjoy it and finish it.

Some background info:

• I entered the marathon 6 weeks ago on September 15th 2009. So it was last minute .
• I am no runner, far from it, this race was my first race ever.
• I slept 2 hours before the race because I was nervous that I would oversleep, I had been working on our book proposal [ exciting and a great opportunity ! ] and my iPod decided to call it quits so I had to figure out how to work it … I am a Sony kinda woman … who loves NAPSTER [ yes I do ! Give me Napster any day over iTunes ]

So uhm yeah, I know I am making excuses for my bad time … but I don’t care. I RAN A MARATHON !

It hurt so bad … but I think that I know now how to run the next one [oh yeah... there will be a next one]

My body is so sore today and I can’t walk or even get out of my bed without holding on the tables, closets and walls.

Was it worth it? You bet ya !

Whooohooooo!